There were no words then,
only tears, unimaginable despair
every piece of Being seemingly destroyed
blinded, I could not see the Sun,
clouds mocked fleeting moments of release,
the silence – deafening.
the disappearance of him – a little death.
Anger would rise and fall, tripping me,
endless bouts of restless sleep –
slumber had escaped in defiance
of all possible truths,
none of them true.
no Peace of Soul,
upheaval of a Life
then wracked with pain
as days became months,
void of light, existence unresolved.
no solution to be rendered
only torment within turning it over
yet, forgiveness muted
was the only way back to Us.